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IUD Emergency

It’s been a whole year since my IUD had to be surgically removed.
Pain had been brewing for about 24 hours. I honestly thought it was the worst gas I’d ever had. I even bought GasX. Big surprise, it wasn’t gas.
I finally called my doctor’s off hours line. She called me back, and after hearing my symptoms, she advised me to go directly to ER because it sounded like appendix or kidney stones.
On a pain scale of 1-10, I was a 15. All the pain was radiating from the front of my uterus to the back.
I didn’t have anyone to help me. Well, I didn’t really ask either. I thought maybe I was being dramatic, and that the pain was in my head. So I survived taking my kids to their schools and drove myself to the hospital.
I was in the ER waiting room for 6 hours. But in that time, they gave me an IV of fluids, pain meds, ultrasound, MRI, and nice warmed up blankets.
The nurses were ANGELS. One thing I learned, be genuinely nice to your nurses, and they will be so cool with you. I watched so many people yell and scream at nurses just doing their job. Let’s just say that they didn’t exactly get preferential treatment.
I finally got called back. More and more tests to figure out what was wrong with me. Most I don’t remember now. I was given morphine, and my heart rate dropped super low, so I had to get off it. My Mom finally got here at this point.
They started ruling things out. It’s not appendicitis, not kidney stones. We finally decided that it was probably my IUD. Nothing could be done that night so I was officially admitted. And I got a nice room on a different floor.
At this point, I had been at the hospital for nearly 9 hours. My vein blew so they had to search for another good vein. I have tiny baby veins, and at one point, I literally had three nurses intricately searching my arms and legs for a good vein. They kept sticking me and blowing veins. It was a very very low moment for me. Needles terrify me. And this was basically my worst nightmare. Tears well up even now as I think about it. But again, my nurses were so gentle and kind. I felt safe and taken care of.
Speeding up the story… next day, gynecologist came in and did a pelvic exam. He tried to pull the IUD strings for a solid 5 mins. It was one of the most painful things I’ve ever experienced. While he was extremely kind, respectful and professional, I should have told him to stop. I endured it. But I didn’t need to. He was actually impressed by all the pain I had tolerated. The doctor ended up not being able to pull it out, so surgery would have to be done to remove it anyway.
This was midday, and I learned that he couldn’t do the surgery until the next day. Thank God that I brought my iPad! It was a lot of downtime.
Next morning at about 5:30am, I was actually having a pretty decent sleep, and the nurses came in and told me now was the time. In my medicated sleep fog, I literally asked if I could sleep longer! The answer was a resounding no, sweetie.
Ok I have never had surgery. This was a first for me. It was cold and lonely in the prep area. But again, everyone was so kind and patient. I had a nice dream about Spongebob when I was under. When I came to, it was about 45 mins until they could wheel me back to my room. I was slightly loopy. I remember laughing as the nurse helped transfer me from the moving bed to the room bed. I laughed, “well thank God I shaved my legs”! We all laughed.
After the surgery, all my pain was literally gone. That was it. It was the IUD. It turns out that it was likely infected upon insertion. And it was basically destroying me from the inside. Looking back, I had a ton of signs that it was infecting me. I won’t go in to the gory details.
My point is, DON’T IGNORE YOUR BODY WHEN IT IS CLEARLY TRYING TO TELL YOU SOMETHING. I did actually go to the doctor a few times over the years to get things treated. But the treatment for those was just a little bandaid for a larger problem. I’m upset with myself that I didn’t push for more answers when I kept getting infections.
I was deeply affected by this experience, emotionally speaking. That is for another day to explain. But I felt a deep need to share this part of the story in detail to give context to a greater issue- women’s reproductive health and rights.
Thank you so much for reading this deeply personal experience. I truly appreciate it from the bottom of my heart.
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When God says “wait”

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Here’s the thing about prayer and asking God for things that you want…sometimes, it’s a clear and easy “yes”. Other times, He say’s a very firm “no”. And then for things we want most, they are almost always a, “wait” or “not yet”…which means, “Lauren, have faith that I am working on it.”

In these times of waiting, God is building your faith and your testimony. If He just gave you everything you ever wanted when you asked, you’d wouldn’t have this amazing testimony of perseverance and Faith that you could share to be a beacon of light for others in their time of need!

Remember those really hard things you went through? Or maybe you’re going through them right now?

One of my favorite stories in the Bible when Jesus speaks very directly, is found in Mark chapter 4:35-41. He had been teaching to large crowds, and He decided that He and the 12 should go over to the other side of the lake. They get in and this crazy storm hits. The 12 disciples are literally freaking out. Meanwhile, Jesus is asleep on a cushion. They shout to him, “Teacher, don’t you care if we drown?!” He got up and calmed the storm. When everything died down, Jesus said, “why are you so afraid? Do you still have no faith?”

I believe that He was saying this because they had seen him do SO MANY MIRACLES. They had seen his love and kindness and how it changed people. They had watched his followers turn from a few to thousands. After witnessing all that, HOW could they still have so little faith through the storm?

For me, I want to have the kind of faith that Jesus has. Faith strong enough to be so calm during a figurative or literal storm, that I could sleep.

You must have faith that Jesus will calm your waves and your storm. He will always bring you safely to the other side.

“Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.”

James 1:2-4

Did you catch that? “Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.” It’s all in God’s perfect timing. If you are asking, and God keeps telling you, “wait a little longer,” it is because you are not ready yet.

I do consider it a joy. I thank God all the time for everything I have been through. I wouldn’t have everything I have now without it. It was Faith. Faith and prayer that one day, I would come out on the other side of the stormy lake. Let me tell you, I have and it’s beautiful over here.

“Blessed is she who has believed that the Lord would fulfill his promises to her!” -Luke 1:45

Anyway, God finally gave me a “yes” 😊 I’ll share about it soon.

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My Dog Almost Died and an Angel Saved Her

“As I drove over there, I did not know what was going to happen. I did not know if she would last through the night. But I knew God was leading me, so I just simply followed. And I am so happy that I did! I could have turned away and brought her home to let her pass. But I knew I had to go to this place…..”

Poor baby after I picked her up from her overnight care

This is Miley. She is nine years old, and I adopted her in 2010 when she was 8 weeks old. Miley is a terrier, corgi, lab, goldie mutt (I know she doesn’t look like a goldie, but her mom was!). She has always been a fiercely loyal dog, and she’s been the best watch dog. I have every confidence that she would bark away any bad guys. She loves my kids, and is never far from them wherever they are in the house.

I have forever joked that Miley would outlive us all. She’s a trash digging, scrap eating dog. It has never phased her. And she’s never been sick!

Last Tuesday, I noticed that she hadn’t eaten her food for almost a full day. That was highly usual for her. Sometimes, she grazes over her food and comes back an hour later to eat it. But it’s not like her to leave it completely untouched.

I started to notice that she wasn’t barking anymore or leaping up at us when the kids and I came in the door.

Over the next 24 hours, Miley started to decline rapidly. All the sudden, she was limping and could barely walk. Aside from everything else, that’s when I knew something was very seriously wrong.

It was 4pm on Thursday, and the kids and I, along with Miley on a makeshift bed in the back of my explorer, headed to the vet. The vet tech came back and took her temp, and it was a 106.9 fever! The vet came in a re-checked the temp with a different thermometer to double check, and it shot right up to 106.9.

They immediately took her back to give her an IV of fluids, which brought her temp down slightly.

This whole time, I’m freaking out internally because 1.) I was so worried for her, but was trying to remain positive for the kids and 2.) How the heck will I pay for her treatments and medicine? I knew this would be an expensive trip. I’m a single mom that lives basically paycheck to paycheck. That’s not something I advertise, but hey, it’s real. And that’s the point of this blog.

I finally did explain my financial situation to them, and bless the good people at Trinity Animal Hospital off Alicia in Orange County, they didn’t charge me for the bag of fluids.

By that time, it was getting close to their closing time, so they sent us to Animal Urgent Care of SOC in Mission Viejo, which is an overnight urgent care.

As I am driving there, I am having an internal conversation with myself and God. Should we go here? God, how will I afford this OVERNIGHT stay for her? And my mind went darker, what is the point at which I would put her down?

We get there, and poor Miley is panting, extremely tired and weak. They ushered her back right away to get her hooked up to an IV.

We went in to a room, and after they assessed her, the vet tech came in with a summary of what her estimated treatments and bill will look like in the morning.

What she said next shocked me, and I knew that God was extremely present in that moment.

“Someone by the name of ………….. just called, and she wants to take care of the entire bill for you.”

I stood there in disbelief. And then the tears came in as realization settled in. I had no idea who this woman was. I don’t know what her faith is, but she must have had some kind of nagging in her heart. That’s the Holy Spirit.

What would have happened if she ignored that feeling? My dog would have died. It scares me to think of how many times that I have felt that familiar nagging feeling in my heart and ignored it. How many times have I said “No” to God?

BUT she said “yes”, and answered the call. And my Miley was able to receive the overnight care and medications that she so desperately needed.

Once again, GOD SHOWED UP. Jesus said in Matthew 7:7 “Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.”

“Truly I tell you, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.” Matthew 17:20

As I drove over there, I did not know what was going to happen. I did not know if she would last through the night. But I knew God was leading me, so I just simply followed. And I am so happy that I did! I could have turned away and brought her home to let her pass. But I knew I had to go to this place.

I love when God does this. You’re scared and very nervous. And then He’s like BAM! Wassup? Miracle for YOU! And a miracle for YOU! EVERYBODY HERE GET’S MIRACCCCLLLLLLLLEEESSSSSSS!

I love this imagery, and it’s fun to paint it that way, but that’s how it feels! When you are following where God is leading you, when you listen to the silent messages He gives you, He always shows up. He will never leave you, and rest assured He will always be with you when you go through tough times.

“Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; Do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.” Joshua 1:9

So to the woman who helped save my dog, I will be forever thankful. I will use this lesson of selflessness and pay it forward.

Update: She’s doing great on antibiotics and is at home with us!

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